Dear sisters,
I love being your big sister. I like that we're able to get along and relate to each other. I wish we were closer in age, but at the same time, I have a feeling that if we were, our relationships would be different. I remember when each of you were born...M and I fought over who would get to hold you first. I felt so special being the big sister who got to show you how to do things...and I feel like I still get to do that now. I cherish the time we spend together, and I hope that as we all grow up and older, we continue to be more than just sisters-I hope we stay each others' friends.
At the end of the day, I hope you know that you can call me any time of the day or night, and I will always be there for you. I love being your big sister. Always remember that I love you both.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
Day Five
Dear Brother,
When we were younger, you were one of my best friends. I remember playing all sorts of games, running around the neighborhood, and keeping each other company out on Grandma and Grandpa's farm. As we grew up, we spent less time together, but I think we were still pretty close. In high school, we did a lot of the same activities, which was pretty awesome. Show choir was one of my favorite things that we shared. It was neat to be able to do something with my brother that I was so passionate about.
Believe it or not, I also liked living with you, and was sad when that ended...despite our very heated arguments. When you joined the Navy, I was so proud of you. When you went to Afghanistan, I was terrified of losing you. Never was I so happy as when I found out you were back on American soil.
Brother, I love you. I don't always agree with the choices you make, but please know that no matter what, you can count on me. I will always be there for you. Listen to your heart, follow God, take care of yourself, and strive to be the best man you can be. Nobody could ask any more of you than that.
When we were younger, you were one of my best friends. I remember playing all sorts of games, running around the neighborhood, and keeping each other company out on Grandma and Grandpa's farm. As we grew up, we spent less time together, but I think we were still pretty close. In high school, we did a lot of the same activities, which was pretty awesome. Show choir was one of my favorite things that we shared. It was neat to be able to do something with my brother that I was so passionate about.
Believe it or not, I also liked living with you, and was sad when that ended...despite our very heated arguments. When you joined the Navy, I was so proud of you. When you went to Afghanistan, I was terrified of losing you. Never was I so happy as when I found out you were back on American soil.
Brother, I love you. I don't always agree with the choices you make, but please know that no matter what, you can count on me. I will always be there for you. Listen to your heart, follow God, take care of yourself, and strive to be the best man you can be. Nobody could ask any more of you than that.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Day Four
Dear Mom,
I'm not sure what to say. We've had quite a rocky relationship. I feel like I don't have the same relationship with you that everyone else has...and that makes me sad. I love you and I think you are a great person, but sometimes I wonder how I could change so that I can be the kind of person you want me to be. I long to be as close to you as M and S are. I wish I could make you proud. I wish I had more to say to you...but I feel like the only things we have in common are cooking and cleaning. I don't like discussing "real" things with you because I feel like I can never be right...like everything I do is not quite good enough. I know you have always had high expectations for me, and I know I've disappointed you greatly over the years. I know I have given you many reasons in the past to not trust that I will follow through on what I say I am going to do. But I really think I have changed. I wish you could see how hard I've been trying to make you and dad proud of me. I wish I could take back some of the things I said and did to you when I was younger...maybe that would have changed our relationship. Maybe not. Who knows?
I am still optimistic that one day, we can have the kind of relationship that I've always wanted to have with you. I continue to try and please you, to make you proud enough to brag to your friends about me the way you do about your other children. I hold out hope that one day I will no longer be the black sheep of the family. It hurts me to know that I'm missing out on something great--something my siblings have. I love you, mom, and I know you love me too. I just wish I was sure that you liked me just as I am, and not for what I could be.
I'm not sure what to say. We've had quite a rocky relationship. I feel like I don't have the same relationship with you that everyone else has...and that makes me sad. I love you and I think you are a great person, but sometimes I wonder how I could change so that I can be the kind of person you want me to be. I long to be as close to you as M and S are. I wish I could make you proud. I wish I had more to say to you...but I feel like the only things we have in common are cooking and cleaning. I don't like discussing "real" things with you because I feel like I can never be right...like everything I do is not quite good enough. I know you have always had high expectations for me, and I know I've disappointed you greatly over the years. I know I have given you many reasons in the past to not trust that I will follow through on what I say I am going to do. But I really think I have changed. I wish you could see how hard I've been trying to make you and dad proud of me. I wish I could take back some of the things I said and did to you when I was younger...maybe that would have changed our relationship. Maybe not. Who knows?
I am still optimistic that one day, we can have the kind of relationship that I've always wanted to have with you. I continue to try and please you, to make you proud enough to brag to your friends about me the way you do about your other children. I hold out hope that one day I will no longer be the black sheep of the family. It hurts me to know that I'm missing out on something great--something my siblings have. I love you, mom, and I know you love me too. I just wish I was sure that you liked me just as I am, and not for what I could be.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Day Three
Dear Dad,
You know from day one I was daddy's girl. I love you, and I love that God has blessed me with such an amazing man for my father. You have shown me through words and actions what kind of man I want to marry...the kind of man I want to have a family with.
I hate that we don't spend much time together. I wish my life wasn't so busy, and I wish I was closer to you. I miss those summers when I was younger, and the weather would change, and you and I would go outside and watch the clouds roll in and see how the rain and hail would pound the grass flat. I miss talking baseball with you. I hate that as I grow older, so do you...and I can't imagine that there will come a day when I won't have my daddy anymore.
Thank you for loving me, and for your support over the years. I know I haven't always been the easiest person to live with (or love), but never once did I question your love for me. Thank you for teaching me a million little things, and for showing me that I am worthy of being cared for/about. Thank you for letting me know that you are proud of me when I doubted myself and my choices. Thank you for acknowledging my accomplishments.
I love you, daddy. I am so glad you are mine.
GO YANKS :D
You know from day one I was daddy's girl. I love you, and I love that God has blessed me with such an amazing man for my father. You have shown me through words and actions what kind of man I want to marry...the kind of man I want to have a family with.
I hate that we don't spend much time together. I wish my life wasn't so busy, and I wish I was closer to you. I miss those summers when I was younger, and the weather would change, and you and I would go outside and watch the clouds roll in and see how the rain and hail would pound the grass flat. I miss talking baseball with you. I hate that as I grow older, so do you...and I can't imagine that there will come a day when I won't have my daddy anymore.
Thank you for loving me, and for your support over the years. I know I haven't always been the easiest person to live with (or love), but never once did I question your love for me. Thank you for teaching me a million little things, and for showing me that I am worthy of being cared for/about. Thank you for letting me know that you are proud of me when I doubted myself and my choices. Thank you for acknowledging my accomplishments.
I love you, daddy. I am so glad you are mine.
GO YANKS :D
Day Two-A Day Late
Only on my second post, and already a day late, due to the fact that my BFF2I&B came to town all the way from Green Bay. So today, I will play catch up.
To my crush-
Honestly, I think I am getting too old to have a "crush," but since I cannot come up with a better term, I'm going with it.
I am intrigued by you...the way I feel about you is not quite the same as how I felt when I was younger and had a crush. When I'm with you, I feel like I need to know more about you. You make me laugh and smile like a fool when I'm around you, and you make me feel confident. You are intelligent, sweet, thoughtful and fun to be around. I look forward to hanging out with you, and shamelessly seek out opportunities for us to spend time together. I find it interesting that I am not shy, nor am I as apt to play coy with you, but instead, I feel comfortable enough to be the "real" me around you.
I find it extremely attractive that you are so strong in your faith, and even better is that seeing that in you makes me strive all the more to strengthen my relationship with God. I feel blessed to have you in my life as my friend, and I hope someday in the near future we can toy with the idea of taking that next step.
Until then, I remain faithfully,
Your friend Brooke
To my crush-
Honestly, I think I am getting too old to have a "crush," but since I cannot come up with a better term, I'm going with it.
I am intrigued by you...the way I feel about you is not quite the same as how I felt when I was younger and had a crush. When I'm with you, I feel like I need to know more about you. You make me laugh and smile like a fool when I'm around you, and you make me feel confident. You are intelligent, sweet, thoughtful and fun to be around. I look forward to hanging out with you, and shamelessly seek out opportunities for us to spend time together. I find it interesting that I am not shy, nor am I as apt to play coy with you, but instead, I feel comfortable enough to be the "real" me around you.
I find it extremely attractive that you are so strong in your faith, and even better is that seeing that in you makes me strive all the more to strengthen my relationship with God. I feel blessed to have you in my life as my friend, and I hope someday in the near future we can toy with the idea of taking that next step.
Until then, I remain faithfully,
Your friend Brooke
Monday, April 25, 2011
Day One
To my best friend(s)-
I am the luckiest girl alive to have a friend like you. I have learned more about myself, grown as a person, and developed into the kind of gal that others like being around, and I have you to thank for it. I realize that I am still socially awkward at times, and I may not always be the most ::ahem:: appropriate, but I may never be able to change that! :D
However (or maybe regardless) of my insecurities, faults and flaws, you have chosen to be my friend. I will forever be grateful to you for your unconditional love, support and caring. Thank you for keeping me grounded, and for showing me how to be a good friend. Thank you for helping me remember where I've come from, and for being the mirror that showed me what I'm capable of. Thank you for showing me that I am worthy of being loved, and worthy of happiness. Thank you for strengthening my faith, both in God and in humanity. You have shown me by example that good friends and good people do exist in this world. You rock. The end.
I am the luckiest girl alive to have a friend like you. I have learned more about myself, grown as a person, and developed into the kind of gal that others like being around, and I have you to thank for it. I realize that I am still socially awkward at times, and I may not always be the most ::ahem:: appropriate, but I may never be able to change that! :D
However (or maybe regardless) of my insecurities, faults and flaws, you have chosen to be my friend. I will forever be grateful to you for your unconditional love, support and caring. Thank you for keeping me grounded, and for showing me how to be a good friend. Thank you for helping me remember where I've come from, and for being the mirror that showed me what I'm capable of. Thank you for showing me that I am worthy of being loved, and worthy of happiness. Thank you for strengthening my faith, both in God and in humanity. You have shown me by example that good friends and good people do exist in this world. You rock. The end.
Forgotten
I totally forgot that I had a blog...shows you how motivated I am to do this on a regular basis. However, here I am again, blogging. I'm totally stealing an idea from someone else, so I cannot take all the credit for the topics, but...I've decided that in order to motivate myself, as well as develop a good habit, I'm going to do a month-long project where I write a letter everyday...and these are the people/things I'll be writing to/about. No names will be used (some not needed), but that's okay. If it's you, you'll know it.
Day 1-My best friend(s)
2-My crush (am I too old for a crush?)
3-My Dad
4-My Mom
5-My brother
6-My sisters
7-My dreams
8-A stranger
9-To my exes
10-My favorite internet buddy
11-Someone I wish I could meet
12-Someone I'd like to get to know better
13-A deceased person
14-Someone I really dislike
15-Someone I wish would forgive me
16-Someone I need to forgive
17-Someone I feel like I've drifted apart from
18-The person I miss the most
19-Someone out of state
20-Someone from my childhood
21-The person I wish I could be
22-The person I'm becoming
23-Someone that is always on my mind
24-The one who obliterated my heart
25-Someone I judged by my first impression of them
26-Someone I'd like to give a second chance to
27-To the last person I kissed
28-To the person that gave me my favorite memory
29-To my friend that is going through a rough patch
30-To my future mate
Hopefully I can stick with it this time...
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